SEDATION OF ZOMBIFICATION

I was prescribed with it once when I was thoroughly Zombie-like. The 'zombification' was strong. It was strong enough that I felt as if I was fighting with something. Something that I couldn’t see and tell what exactly it was. Once, I was running from it and I could not bring myself to drive home, I diverted and drove straight into ‘haven’. I was not in my natural disposition.

Later, I went to see her. I didn’t expect that I would need to be sedated when I was already in that state, lethargic and out of focus but it helped. I slept like a baby. I was sure that the bad spirit was dying down with my drowsiness. It’s been almost a year since it happened. Now I feel like it’s haunting me again. Whether it is psychologically, spiritually or physically, I was disturbed. It bothers me even more when it feels as much a part of reality as life is.

Every time when I get home, out of habit, I’d peek under the bed. I don’t know why I do that and I don’t know what I expect to see. I went to see her again recently for a different reason but she prescribed the same thing. She thought I could use some minor tranquilizers. I know that it won't reach the root but it has certainly helped to calm me down. It is a minor sedation that keeps me from what I could be mistakenly regard it as ‘zombification’. In her perspective, may be I am a delusional patient with anxiety disorder.