The Judgment Day

I let my boys went for prayers while I looked after the business. I thought that’s the least I could do if I didn’t want to go for it. Empty stomach, a bit tired and a little bit disorientated today. Although it’s only a little sacrifice (may be I should have not even called it a sacrifice) it still took me a while before I decided to skip Friday lunch.

“Great, you guys are back. Am starving, it’s time for my break.”

Sped away.

“Oh yeah, I saw her online just now. I did ask her if…………..”

Silence.

“Shit. I gotta call you back”

Pulled over. Unwound the window.

“Can I see your IC and driving license please?” I handed over whatever he asked for.
“Why didn’t you use the hands free?”
“I haven’t got one, but I was on speaker though” I already sounded guilty even before being charged. “But I saw you talking on the phone for quite a while”

I told him to just go ahead and do whatever that he must do. He went to his bike and took some stuff. He came back and stood right in front of my car and he kept staring at my number plate for quite a while. He looked at me again. He looked confused. He came to the window.

“You know that it’s an offence to use the phone….”

I just cut him. I admitted that it’s my fault and I told I was just not in the right mind today. (Partly starving , partly tired and partly I was thinking of my dad.)

I was contemplating. I hate to say what I was thinking of saying. He was still in front of my car jotting down something on his pad. At that point, we were like reading each other’s mind. He came back to the window. I thought I was not going to say this but I did.

“Can I just pay the fine here?”

I was really surprised when he said, “That’s not good”
It was even more surprising when he said “I’ll let you go this time but please do not do it again”

Phew! I thought I would feel happy but I wasn’t. I thought it's typicall of them but I was proven wrong. Yet again, my perception was reversed. I was judgmental. I drove away with even more things running in my head now. I began to judge myself …..